“I am proof our past does not destroy our destiny.”
I met Jesus when I was eight. He appeared to me in a dream and beckoned me to come to Him. He said, “Don’t be afraid.”
It was prophetic, as fear was so much a part of my back story.
As a kid, I remember being sheltered behind a tree as family members opened fire on one another. I watched in horror as my mother was beaten up, not once, but often by men she dated and me having to dab make-up on her black eyes and split lips.
Fear rose in me daily when men turned up on our doorstep to drink with my mother. At times, I’d find her passed out when I got home from school.
I had to grow up quickly. I cashed our welfare checks, paid debts, and shopped with our food stamps. Around 13, my innocence was stolen forever when I was sexually assaulted by two men in our world. I carried that burden for years.
At 16, I was living with a friend, when I got the news my 33-year-old mother had died from cirrhosis of the liver. I sobbed until I had nothing left. My mother was beautiful and smart — but her life was cut short by her choices. I never wanted to follow in her footsteps, but I did.
At 17, I moved in with a childhood sweetheart who became abusive. When this relationship ended, I married someone else, and well into our marriage, both of us had adulterous relationships. During this time, I battled with infertility, depression, and suicidal thoughts.
This could have been the end of my story, but it wasn’t.
Instead, I chose to surrender completely to God. I started a non-profit organization and began sharing my testimony. Revelation 12:11 is my signature verse. Since then, God has opened incredible doors.
The Hillsong Channel is a key part of this narrative. I’ve watched Christine Caine’s messages over and over. Hearing her speak with such passion and power about her identity has encouraged me in my calling to women, as has Colour Conference and the Brave Series with Bobbie.
I am thankful for Hillsong Channel and its impact on the daughters of God and their purpose. Today, I am in a loving relationship, I have a thriving ministry, and I’m not afraid. I am proof our past does not destroy our destiny.