“Some people have the radio on all day … I have Hillsong Channel.”
“The abuse started when I was a little girl, and although the perpetrator once asked for forgiveness, the flashbacks set me on a course of self-destruction. At 15, I was out of control. I was so angry with everyone – especially those who should have been protecting me.
I moved away from home. I went out drinking every night, often waking up on the streets or in bed next to a stranger. One night, a wave of hopelessness washed over me. I could not escape my feelings of worthlessness, which had been triggered from childhood abuse and being raped at 16. I had been drinking all day and then I took a box of pills, ending up in the emergency ward.
After this episode, mum sent me to live in Germany with my missionary brother. He and his wife had a peace I so desperately wanted. One night, we were sitting in their lounge room when I said to them, ‘I need to become a Christian.’ The two of them led me in a prayer of salvation. But even after making a commitment, I was still limping along. Nobody taught me the how to read my Bible or how to live a victorious life. Over the next few years, I went to Bible College, worked as a youth pastor and met and married my husband; but eventually, I reverted to the old patterns of behavior. Drinking and prescription medications were my go-to. I was still carrying so much guilt and shame.
When my youngest of three was a year old, I hit the wall and spent three weeks in a psychiatric hospital. Every day was a spiritual battle I thought I might never win. Then one afternoon, about a year ago, I was flicking through the TV channels and came across Hillsong Channel. I had been to the Hillsong Conference a few years earlier and loved it!
The Channel became spiritual medicine for me. Some people have the radio on all day … I have Hillsong Channel. Joel Osteen’s messages have taught me how to have victory. Joyce Meyer has challenged me to study the Word, and Brian Houston has encouraged me to believe for more. Worship songs like Hillsong United’s ‘Not Today’ became my battle cry. I refused to give up.
At 50, it’s finally my time. By saturating myself in God’s Word, my mind has been renewed. I am now studying a Bible course online, my church is taking me on as an intern and I’ve lost 20 kgs. I’ll be devoting my life to telling others of how God took me from a broken, abused, addicted woman who struggled with bipolar and health issues – to a vibrant, positive child of God with an amazing future ahead. Thank you, Hillsong Channel!”
– Liz, Tasmania